Living in burnout

Living in burnout.

“You’ve burned through all your serotonin.” In one sentence, my therapist captured it all. She summarized the burdens of my life that were heavy and numerous. Too heavy. They weighed on me and sometimes felt like they were taking away my options. I was going through a deep level of burnout. Most importantly, she emphasized that it wasn’t my fault. Instead, she explained the scenario – that she has seen far too often – where my brain had essentially burned […]

Five Coping Strategies for Depressive Episodes.

Five Coping Strategies for Depressive Episodes.

Sometimes my depression disappears like an insolent teenager that is truant from their classes.  Other times it’s as inescapable and frustrating as a screaming baby in an airplane. On those days that my depression takes a backseat I feel amazing and I can function with relative ease.  Those days make me feel like a normal person.  I retain hope that my whole life will be like that eventually, but in the meantime I have to be prepared for when my […]

My Depression Won't Take a Vacation.

My Depression Won’t Take a Vacation.

We recently went on a week-long vacation to the Austrian Alps to celebrate our anniversary and Christmas.  We were surrounded by the beauty of the mountains and the serene peacefulness of seclusion.  Mr. Meena was on an extended break from his job, which gave him more time to help out with the mundane, everyday chores of life that tend to bring me down.  I was expecting a blissful week full of making s’mores, drinking our favorite beverage (white Russians), and […]

Depression: Deep Roots and Sleeper Cells.

Depression: Deep Roots and Sleeper Cells.

I’ve had a hard time writing (and functioning) of late. My depression over the past month has been the worst to date.  Usually I have a bad day, a couple of bad days, or a bad weekend.  I’ve never had consecutive bad days that turn into weeks like this before.  In the past, Mr. Meena being home and with me was usually enough to get me up and functioning, but not this time.  I don’t know why today is better […]